Sunday, January 31, 2016

Pagans -- Do Not Lower Yourself into Your Religion

I did not know it at the time but I became Pagan because it was not Christianity. I could also read about it in English and many of its ideas made sense to me. My rabid anger at Christianity was not explainable. I had not been directly harmed by a church member. My anger toward the religion flared the moment in my high school years when I was approached by the evangelical soon to be brother-in-law of a close friend. Again, he did not do anything outside of a social norm. I was simply fundamentally appalled by the ideas he presented. It was three or four decades before I came to know my reason for being so against Christian thought. My understanding of reality does not include the degrading, spirit-killing, self-loathing concept of original sin. There is no place in my reality where I will condemn you for being born. That said, neo-Paganism is not without its major flaws.

When I speak with new Pagans, I offer two pieces of advice. Keep your mouth shut and your pants on.

Keeping your mouth shut is a rule I developed because the barest touch of the other worlds lends one to believe one has discovered a new thing. That one is suddenly wise and knows what one is doing, etc. This is false. You simply do not rise past that falsehood while flapping your gums. In that state, the speaker is an arrogant douche bag. Even people that have no idea what the other worlds are like know this. The only person that does not is the speaker.

Keeping your pants on comes from the lack of dogma and rules in the neo-Pagan community. One can fuck, have sex with or make love to anyone one wants to. As long as it is consensual, so the myth goes, no one will judge you for it. The fact is that they will sit in judgement but they can’t on religious grounds. They will judge you because they want the person you are doing, they hate the person you are doing, they want you and you don’t want them etc. While that is an issue, humans being humans is not really the point of the rule.

Some human beings can have sex with many partners and be just fine. A beauty of Paganism is that they are not judged for this. Most humans raised in my culture cannot do that. The myriad of lovers eats away. They have less self-worth. They begin to lose the person integrity of their own being. Since the neo-Pagan culture has no prohibition against promiscuity, they see no harm in their actions. They do not see how much harm they are doing to themselves.

Here people lower themselves into their religious paradigm instead of rising above it. This is not spirituality; it is self-destruction.

The path here is constant self-surveillance. Sure the sex feels good but do you have to be drunk before, during or after to do it? Do you get a little bit depressed afterwards? Has it gone so far that you are always depressed even during the act? Has it gone so far that you don’t know what your standards are for choosing a partner? If you are promiscuous and do the self-assessment honestly and you find no issues, fall to! Be confident enough to know that you are the exception to the rule in our culture. Do not drag others in that are not exceptional as well.

This just isn’t about sex. I follow Hermes. Hermes is a thief. If I were a man of avarice, I may use that as an excuse to steal things I wanted. I would forget the hymn that uses the word “fraud divine”. I would lower myself into my religion instead of rising up. What exactly is fraud divine?

Hecate is darkness in many of Her forms. If we simply act out and become dispensers of darkness, we lower ourselves into our religion. We must look to the purpose of that darkness to raise ourselves.

When we raise ourselves, we engage in behaviors that are true to our souls not to society. This is freedom like no other.  Exalt your true nature.

There is no part of my reality where I will condemn anyone that engages in activities described above. I may stop interacting with a person but that is not the same as condemnation. It is preserving my sovereignty in my reality. This keeps me safe and sane.

My point here is that religion is a schema for a chosen viewpoint of reality the point of which is to develop your own sense of what is real in your universe. Rightfully pursued, it is an avenue to true freedom. When wrongly pursued, it leads to a life more akin to reality television than true spirit.

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

The Story of Abraham

Last night was odd to say the least. I had many visions. All of these visions showed me how I am distracted from my work. They included like focusing on my mistakes, focusing on the mistakes of others, being unable to see past a crowd (culture-centric thinking). My mind was in such an altered stated that I cannot remember them all. The visions lasted hours. I do know without question that the ideas of have planted. They will come forth when I stray from the path.

I would have predicted my love of baseball would have appeared in a list like that. It did not.

I would not have predicted the spin on the story of Abraham (Genesis 22). As most know, Abraham was told by God to sacrifice his son. Then at the last minute and angel told him not to. Because Abraham was willing to obey and sacrifice his beloved and only son, God blessed him and his descendants. When you look at how Abrahamic religions have spread across the globe, it appears that God kept that promise.

It was revealed that I am in this state. My soul is being asked to sacrifice its only and beloved son, my personality.. That sacrifice is what I fear. This fear is understandable but I am going to make or allow that sacrifice anyway.

I am not saying that I am Abraham. Most of my work has been microcosmic in nature. I just know now there is an analogy with the story of Abraham.

Sunday, December 27, 2015

I Am Afraid

I am not ashamed to admit that I am afraid.

Sometime in the near future, I am going to undergo a second awakening. I have no idea what that entails. I have some idea of how I will manifest, if I am successful in guiding myself through the process.

I am afraid of the sheer aloneness of the process. I am afraid my hard-won knowledge is false. I am afraid of nasty things inhabiting a nasty world and all my perceptions are part of one great cosmic joke. I am afraid of failing.

I am afraid like knowing your parents are about to bust you, afraid like that moment you are under arrest, afraid like going before the judge, afraid of the sentence, afraid of the bars as they clang shut behind you and reverberate through your soul, afraid of the lethal injection, hang man’s noose, electric chair. I am afraid like I just found out I was about to be homeless. I am afraid like I am going to embark on some Dresden Files epic battle armed only with David Copperfield magic wand set from Hasbro.  I am afraid like I am afraid of all these things at once.

That part of me that knows the Perfection of all things is still here. I know this is a truth in my universe. Yee, full knowledge of that will not stop that moment of fear as I fall of the ladder. I am willing to make a sacrifice for the chance of bringing something back.  

I am not walking away. Right now, fear is my companion. I do not like being afraid. 

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Dignity -- Theurgic Lesser Key of Solomon

Some of the spirits of the Lesser Key have the ability to destroy dignity. Could you use those spirits to knock down a rival a few pegs? I suppose so.

There is a deeper place to go. A place few are willing to go. However, if you consider yourself a true spiritual person and you've done nothing like I am about to suggest, perhaps dignity is an issue.

We all do things we are not proud of. We all try to hide those from time to time. Sometimes we are successful and others never know. Very often people know what we've done. They either know from instinct or facts or from just knowing us. The problem with dignity is we assume we have it when all we have done is fool ourselves. All of we have done is deny ourselves self-knowledge. We have denied ourselves a true relationship with those we love. All by working so hard to maintain false dignity.

So conjure one of these spirits. Ask it to reveal not only to you but to the people that matter whatever you are hiding that is in the way of your spiritual growth.

Trust me. IT WILL SUCK. Long-term much will be gained. There is greater dignity in not hiding who you were. I said that in the past tense. For some odd reason, it truly does become who you were. You will no longer be false. You will be one step closer.

EDIT: After publishing this, I was filled by a sense of foreboding. This is not for the newby. This is for people that have done some solid theurgic work for some time. This is no place to start.

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Definitions -- Demons and Angels

Demon and angel are loaded terms. Filled with preconceived notions. What follows is not an occult definition to describe beings. Instead, it is a simple method of determining action using a animistic point of view.

Demon -- any being, idea or behavior that creates a barrier between oneself and one's sense of the divine.

Angel -- any being idea or behavior that creates connection to and enhances one's sense of the divine. 

Invoke and banish accordingly.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Huson's Theurgy

If any of you are still around from the old days of this blog, you may remember several rants about what I thought of Paul Huson. Well for the record, I still find his book to lack any sort of humanity. However, he did include the most effective and easy ritual for theurgy that I have ever come across.

In Mastering Witchcraft, Huson speaks of a making a 'token gesture' for people entering the craft. Token gesture is a huge understatement. He says to recite the lords prayer backwards to remove old restraints and dedicate oneself to the craft.

The idea is that you've been bound by the belief systems instituted by Christendom even if you have never walked into a church. These must be undone. Take that part with a grain of salt. Some of us need to undo them. Some of us part of them. Others may only need to remove a smidgen.

What you do need to do is remove every indoctrinated belief about yourself that does not serve your purposes. So, here is what you do.

  • Make a list of your limiting believes and facts about yourself. It does not have to be extensive as there is no rule that says you cannot repeat this process. However, the items on your list must be important to you.
  • Write that list backwards.
  • Light candles, maybe some incense and call upon your God/gods and your highest and best self (your immortal soul). Take your time with this. Focus on this until you get that gut feeling they are there. If that never comes, do it anyway. Sincerity counts here.
  • Recite your backwards list three times. 
  • Repeat on three consecutive nights.
  • You can keep a record of what you said. However, the list you read from during the rite should be burned.
As for your list and writing it backwards. Here is what that may look like.

I get nervous when I meet new people. 
My appearance is unkempt. 
I am meant to be alone.

Notice the first two are facts and the last is a belief. Any combination is just fine.

Backwards, that list reads like this:

elpoep wen teem I nehw suovren teg I
tpmeknu si ecnaraeppa yM
enola eb ot tnaem ma I

Don't be intimidated. Just read it as best you can. By day three it will sound like a cool new language. 

Yes, I have done this several times. Having experienced the inward initiation does not mean that the work is complete. 

Sunday, November 15, 2015

For Those Working the Lesser Key of Solomon (the Goetia)

Having been asked, here is how to work the Goetia.

There are a lot of rules to working the goetia. The circle, lamens, triangles of art and the like are clearly shown in most texts. Lesser used tools, such as the tail of a lion are also mentioned as requirements. 

Frankly, none of these are necessary. I repeat not a single tool is necessary. The problem is that you've been told they are. You've been told that the Solomonic spirits in that book are dangerous. Whether your conscious mind believes that or not, some part of you does. Therefore, using these tools becomes a requirement. The belief, note that I did not say knowledge, that these spirits are dangerous is enough to make them so. The people that have told you they are dangerous to you have not done you any favors but nothing can be done for it.

One note of warning, the spirits can be dangerous to others. Always admonish them not to harm yourself, others that you know or do not know. Some go so far as to include a line preventing harm to pets. 

In magick, words often mean what you think they mean. Though just as often they mean what they mean. So, figure out what harm means. Even though it is obvious, look it up in several dictionaries. Read all the meanings because all the meanings apply at some level. Then meditate, "What does 'harm' mean? My definition of that word has so morphed over time that this exercises bears repeating. To me, harm is short term. Nothing is harmful over the long term but that is my view of the universe and an entirely different story.

Go through this exercise with every tool. What are those squiggly lines and names around the pentagram? There is much to be learned there. Learn about every tool. Read. Meditate. Most likely a lion's tail is unobtainable but its secrets are not. What properties did those ancients hope to gain from such an article? See to it that you have them. 

As unnecessary as they are, follow the rules and learn of the tools as best you can. There is much to be gained there. 

Here is why goetia has the reputation it does. People approach it from a place of disbalance. I coin that word due to its similarity with disease. Dis-ease... a lack of ease. Balance is imperative. Everyone that I have ever seen harm themselves or others with these spirits did so because they used them to get things they wanted. They used them to sooth their fragile egos. They used them to demonstrate power. In short, they leaned into their petty sides so far that a stiff breeze blew them over an into the abyss...and not in a good way.

A profound sense of the point is necessary. This is given in the first knowledge lecture of the Golden Dawn. Meditate on the point as defined in mathematics. Become that point. This point is the further defined in the Qabalistic Cross and is truly the 'point' of doing the LBRP. The LBRP does not banish it centers. It defines your point.  You become a carbon copy of G-d and nothing defies G-d. Spirits fall into line. They have to. They. Have. No. Choice. 

I gained knowledge of the point slowly and over a great deal of time. It can be achieved much more quickly but with a greater risk of trauma. Frankly, the long-term view says dive right in. Hit yourself with a hammer. You will heal or you won't. If you don't, you were never going to be successful anyway. 

First, start with Orobas. One of his abilities is that he does not suffer you being tempted by other spirits. In short, he brings you on point when you need to be. Conjure him, and ask that he does that but more importantly ask the following. "Remove from me that which prevents my understanding of the universe in such a way that my ego remains in tact for as long as I need it to." Feel free to reword that. The keys are: removing things that block your understanding/wisdom etc. and to do so in a way that does not drive you bonkers. Going from zero to enlightened leaves you unable to operate in the mundane world. 

Let that sit for a while. Learn how it works. Learn from your new place of clarity. Then move on to other spirits.

Yes, you can ask them to do things. I used one, documented in this space, to retrieve a magickal item being kept from me. Use them more often for knowledge of your universe. Use them to remove things that prevent that knowledge.

Yes, you will act out and do stupid things. Your reputation will suffer. You will dislike yourself at times but this vomiting forth will serve you. No longer will you be able to hide those things that interfere with your soul's manifestation. These things will be purged. In doing so, you will rise up and take these spirits with you. You will make them better.

Most of these spirits truly mean no harm. I have yet to encounter one that does. That does not mean no such spirit exists only that I have not encountered that one yet.

Courage. Perseverance. Sacrifice. You can do this. Know that it will not always be pretty but you can do this.